Even though many people will envy me for having all this money, I am afraid it will hurt me in some ways more important than it will help me. Having the responsibility of all this money will make me stressed more than I can imagine. Not only do I have figure out how to deal with it in a smart way, I worry what people will think of how I do deal with it. I know I want to donate to charities, but what if people judge or lose respect for me judging on who I donate to or how much? I need to find a balance between feeling like I truly own the money and coming off as greedy.
Obviously, with all this money comes attention. I know now that people who have never payed any to me will want to be my friend, or more truthfully, want to be friends with my money. Those people I think I can handle, but what I'm really worried about is the change in my friends and family. I am afraid they will turn on me if they don't get what they want, or they will get fed up with me having more than them. It is funny to me how people always say "Get a good job so you have lots of money!" but most of the time when they hear of a rich person, they are automatically snobby. In the end, I guess I really just wish people would judge me for my personality and not my money. Even with all this extra weight I now have on my shoulders, I am still thankful. What has been put on can never been compared to what weight has been taken off.